cue holiday season!

At 19 weeks and 2 days pregnant, I got in a car accident. My first rational thought was (well, after all the cuss words) a combination of “are they okay?” and “oh shit I’m pregnant.” After which I proceeded to hyperventilate for a second. Don’t worry, I’ve been checked out and so has baby, and we both seem fine. My anxiety level, however, is not testable. Pregnancy has been a pretty scary thing for me from the beginning. There is no ruler by which to measure my progress accurately. This is the human condition of “am I normal?” multiplied by the fact that another life depends on my ability to ascertain my own normality. I’m not really worried. I am pretty healthy and there are no signs that anything is wrong. I just feel like it’s important to verbalize that growing a baby is some scary shit. Everyone talks about the gross stuff, the fun stuff, the physical/hormonal stuff, but I haven’t heard anyone talk about how scary it is just to be an incubator.

On another (happier!) note, I’m doing a Runner’s World Run Streak- running a minimum of 1 mile a day from Thanksgiving to New Year’s. Yep. Running. Every day. Which means I have to put on running clothes and go either outside or to a treadmill every single day. To coincide with the streak, I’m planning to read “What I Talk About When I Talk About Running.” Apparently I’ve been super into memoirs lately, and I’m hoping that the combination of daily runs (even super short ones!) with hearing someone else’s thoughts on running will help this habit to stay a habit. They say it takes 21 days for a habit to form. Well, this streak is 36 days…

Pretty sure that’s all I have to say- I guess I need to figure out how to manage without a car for a while. Maybe I’ll just run to and from work?

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One Comment to “cue holiday season!”

  1. I’m glad you are ok!!! It is all very scary and once they get here its even worse lol so many dangers everywhere… the joys of motherhood heh xxx

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